EMO

I don't know what I am actually feeling now.

Is like lossing all my senses at a time.

Sports practice is way too tiring and we have to do them EVERYDAY.

Getting a bunch of homework which are really insane after the holidays.

Getting stress from the results.

Getting bad results like someone saying 'you just passed' to you like it was just my luck.

Freaking competition among the results.

Comparing results.

Getting the worse headache in the universe.

Get scolded for many unknown reasons.

Having friend which can get your blood pressure going up till the maximum point at times.

Having no rest.

All this feelings come together at the same time...

After the holidays.

This is going to be my worse week.

WHAT IS WRONG TO MY LIVE NOW???

Getting EMO most of the times.

Even tried to keep myself away from other people by sticking myself to music and storybooks.

I tend to get irritated by what ever thing that others are doing.

Even when I know that they are trying to make me feel better after all the exam stress that I am going through.

But no matter what I still can't control myself from being irritated.

All I can do is to keep all the feelings to myself and try to get the best way out of it.

Staying in the room?

Try to hide myself in homeworks?

Studies?

I try to tell someone whom I can trust about my feelings although I know that she will be worried for me.

But, what can I do?

Even I myself also can't understand what I am feeling right now.

And I don't want to give more pressure to anyone else.

Hiding all these feelings for myself really hurts.

When can all these feelings end and i can be back to my normal self?

I felt so lazy to do anything...

Watching TV, online, playing computer...

ANYTHING!!

and

EVERYTHING!!

I wonder what can help me.

A long holiday?

Cry?

I really have no idea on what to do.

The only thing i know is that I still need to brush up on my studies and try to forget about all my EMO thinkings.